Ahhhhhh...life. I can't say that I am completely pleased with myself lately. I have been slacking like crazy - in my workouts, spiritual life, my reading, and overall just a little bit of everything. I lack motivation, and it frustrates me SO much! In highschool I was beyond motivated. I had goals in life, and I knew where I wanted to be...BYU. This one goal made my ambition spill over in to all areas of my life, but now that I'm there, my sense of direction is completely gone. I miss the old me, and I don't know how to get her back. I have a major attitude problem too. I just want to be better - ya know. It frustrates me to see myself just doing nothing, when I have so much more potential than that. I'm just frustrated.
However, I plan to rectify the situation. There are some things that have happened lately that have begun to spark my fire. During swim lessons the other day, I discovered that one of my students does not speak english! I can't tell you how much I love to speak spanish!! I get excited and my entire mood changes entirely by saying just a few words. It's insane.
I want to find my fire again!! If you have any advice or suggestions, I would love to hear them!!
Muchos besos,
Kenzi
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